Its’s been hundreds of minutes and a couple of hours since we had a decent talk. Am here on my car listening to upbeat songs just to drown the loneliness. Thinking about positive thoughts to make sure that i last my day. But despite of all that i get to realize something on your absence.
I need you when i’m sad and i miss you when i’m happy.
I just don’t feel complete when you’re not with me.
There are so many
things I’m not sure of
but I am
but I’m not
But I am
and so on for infinity.
The only thing I’m sure of
I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it’s getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
I wanna know what it’d be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
But turn it off in all my spite
I’ll turn it off
And the worst part is, before it gets any better
We’re headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize that
I’m better off when I hit the bottom
The tragedy, it seems unending
I’m watching everyone I looked up to breaking, bending
We’re taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero
Well I can see behind the curtain
The wheels are cranking turning
It’s all wrong the way we’re working
Towards a goal, that’s non-existent,
But we just keep believing
Someone told me to always
love the little things
Live for the 5am sunrise and 5pm sunsets
where you’ll see colors in the sky that
don’t usually belong.
Live for the road trips and bike rides
with music in your ears and
the wind in your hair.
Live for the days when you’re surrounded
by your favorite people who make you realize
that the world is not a
cold, harsh place.
Live for the little things because
they will make you realize that
this is what life is all about.
What love is all about.
And this is what it means to be
I bow my head to pray…I hope you’ll hear me out.. I know you know my story…and that’s what I’m praying about.. I know I feel unworthy…but I know no other way… I hope you’ll spare a moment…of your time with me today.
If you will find it in your heart..to look deep down in mine… sincere and Honest feelings..are the sorries that you’ll find.. And as I ask forgiveness..in return to you..I vow.. I will make it all up to you..if you’ll just forgive me now..
I’m reaching out to you… and my life is in your hands.. Please piece it back together..as your the only one who can.. Take away my burdens and put peace within.. Have mercy on me one more time..and walk with me again..
Please do not forsake me..I’m helpless on my own.. Life’s burdens are too hard to bare..when I bare them alone.
Well Lord, I’ve poured my heart out to you.. and humbly I stand.. I’m trusting you will answer..as unworthy as I am.. and should you choose..to not forgive..and pass me by today. I’ll thank you now..for time you’ve spent..to hear this prayer I prayed.